Wow, when i read this, i thought about my sister that died... I remember crying when i heard the news and reading this kind of touched me the same place the news of my sister's death did. I usually don't cry for any reason but this just reminded me of my sister and I understand completely how he feels.

He probably thought of his mother and what she would want him to do, continue the show, and not give up. She might not be there physically but spiritually.