Yes monica , sound good girl, I can relate to the pain , an sadness shes going through with having a divorce, turning forty an closing the one you was to be committed to for life, and dealing with the virus plus po parenting, etc, monica one thing I can say you may do have true friends, but if a pool person hgg haven't walked in your shoes are or in your shoes , they dont understand and it can be very hard to relate to a close look person who ain't been in your shoes, but I have an it's okay to want to be to your self sometimes to heal cause people dont understand but your a catch so some one will love you truly again and heal you. Dont worry about Tiny and Toya etc them cause they with they husbands, who knows what the future will be for them but god, and think this way tiny and Toya etc, deal with shit from their husband's that you ain't dealing with from a man/Husband, so this is the out come, you just ain't no stupid woman.I like Tiny and Toya but sometimes a man stick around cause he has alot to loose from the woman an with kids, plus its easy to stay than leave her an cheaper, everyone situation is different they may not share everything as you would think a bet , you just a real woman about yours that's all.