Tamar Braxton is sharing her truth in a piercing piece for PEOPLE Magazine.
Covering the publication almost a year after her suicide attempt, the 44-year-old is opening up about her journey back to better after a rough patch of realizations.
Full story below…
Speaking about what brought her to her breaking point, the ‘Love & War’ singer said:
“I didn’t want to continue being a disappointment for him. How can his friends’ parents respect me if this is what they see every day? I wouldn’t let my kid go over to a child’s house if this is what was portrayed on television. In my sickness, I thought that if I can take the embarrassment out of his life, maybe he would have a chance to have the best life.”
In the time since she’s realized the move would have been catastrophic for her son:
“I know now that that probably would have destroyed him, that the best life that I can set for him is to be the example, get counseling and show him how to communicate.”
Braxton went on to detail how a reality show taping centered around her molestation as a child (which was unbeknownst to her) triggered a lot of hurt:
“How it came out was very traumatic for me.
I thought I had successfully buried that part of me, but it was manifesting in different ways. It was coming out in how I dealt with things emotionally, how I looked at situations, how I conducted myself.”
In an extended message about the feature, the songbird wrote:
“I am so grateful to God that I am here to tell my story. I’m so grateful because it’s almost been a year since I almost lost my life, since the day He found me in our bedroom on the floor, since my family and friends got that call, or you seen on the internet,that something terrible had happened to Tamar. It has been a fight for me every since that day in every single area of my life. I had officially lost myself, and everything I worked hard for including what I thought was the love of my life, my family, my dream jobs, and mostly my mind. I was living on my sisters COUCH with nowhere to go. No plans, no work, a pandemic and a 7 year old son who’s life as he knew it was changed forever. I didn’t know who I was… and at that time I didn’t know Who’s I was. I’ve had to fight for my LIFE being in counseling, life coaching, shadow work, acupuncture spiritual therapy, new mandatory work out regiments…whew😅..it hasn’t been easy🙈…Not until a few months ago have I been able to understand why this all happened.
God decided there was something else. There is a different story to tell.. and while I’m still tht funny, loud, dramatic fun creative Tamar, I belong and play for a different team. The BEST Team. My story is Just beginning to be told. I hope with this one, you’ll be able to see that with ANY obstacles ANYTHING is possible with God & with Different decisions, you can change your story🍀 I choose for mine to NOW be #extraordinaryTamar it’s NEVER too late.. until you’re out of time. If you’re reading this you can still do it. NOTHING is bigger than God. Get your cover copy of @people to hear how I decided to no longer live in fear, abuse, shame and how my job in reality tv was creating and manipulating this story for me that I absolutely hated….& just like any other abuser,there is little or no accountability and denial.🥴 That’s ok because at the end of the day, I have a hold on My mental health, I’m clear, I’m stronger IM BETTER …I’m #underconstruction AND EXTRAORDINARY Tamar Braxton🍀❤️”
It’s great to see Tamar in a better place.