You are not alone....I'm going through a divorce it wasn't a marriage it was a nightmare. There are so many emotions involved everyday. The real pain for me is everyone you really think is genuine and in your corner...they look at YOU as the failure. Because I fought back and won ! What I've learned is that when it comes to self health , you have to make the best decision for self even if it's hard. You come to realize how much you need yourself. So many of us live in fear of being alone so we accept and endure constant affliction...until it becomes "yall can get through this", "It menopause " no matter how much you tell them or pour your heart they don't want to hear because it reminds them of how much they endured and made it normal. I'm walking thus journey with My God. My prayer for all of us is new direction new lasting beginnings..healthy friends encouraging to your growth and success...and most all peace ..inner peace ..don't rush forgiveness don't fight off emotions find people who will embrace your whole you and listen without judge ....there are so many of us I feel alone in this too