Michelle Williams Reflects on EPIC ‘Cowboy Carter Tour’ Destiny’s Child Reunion / Reveals She Still Suffers “Trauma” Over ‘106 & Park’ Fall

It’s been nearly a week since Destiny’s Child‘s surprise reunion at the finale of Beyonce‘s history-making ‘Cowboy Carter Tour,’ but diehard fans of the ladies are still flooding social media about the topic.

Among the most talked about commentary on the jaw-dropping moment came from group member Michelle Williams herself, however.

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Taking to the latest episode of her ‘Checking In’ podcast, Williams waxed honest about the anxieties she faced in preparation for the reunion with her Destiny’s Child bandmates to perform ‘Lose My Breath,’ ‘Bootylicious,’ and more at the last stop of Bey’s ‘Cowboy Carter Tour.’

“I was trying to stay focused because y’all know I still have trauma from falling on ‘106 & Park’ [in 2004],” Michelle revealed. “Every time I perform with the girls it’s in my head, ‘do not fall.'”

To prevent a repeat of the nearly 21-year-old incident at the Vegas showing, the 46-year-old revealed she even considered altering her wardrobe.

“[The ‘106’ fall] is still in my head. Steps do frighten me. Did I rehearse those steps? Sure did,” she relayed.

When showtime came on Saturday night (July 26), however, Michelle was singing a different tune: one of readiness and triumph.

“Oh my gosh, you dummy. You let fear or lack of trust [overcome you],” Williams revealed she said to herself. “Because if it were to happen that I fell, I would not be able to live that down for the next 20 years.”

Hear the full podcast here.

This isn’t the first time Michelle has looked back on that ‘Soldier’ performance from 2004. Click here to see what she said about it last year.