In reply to Bey Queen.

You didn't forget, you were in denial. In other words, you didn't want to accept what happened to you. But abuse victims (especially dealing with sexual abuse) NEVER forget. The only abuse that the body completely shuts down & you really do forget it is during physical torture abuse. Like, when someone is beating & torturing the shit outta you. The mind & body will definitely shut down, literally. And, you'll lose actual MEMORY of what happened to you. But, most sexually abused victims ALWAYS remembers what happened to them, it NEVER goes away. There's a big difference from denial & actually forgetting being abused.
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I've suffered from both sexual abuse as a child, rape abuse as an adult & physical abuse as a child/adult. And, I definitely remember the sexual abuse. I would DENY it because I didn't want to relive to nasty shit in my head, but you never forget it. Now, physical abuse is what I totally lost certain memories on. I would beat one time to a bloody mess. And, at one moment I totally blacked out & forgot I who I was. It's taken me years sometimes to even remember that I was physically beat up for being "gay". But, for me, I confronted the dudes years later. And, I got not only the full story of what they did to me that day, but an apology as well. I don't like running from my problems or abuse. I'm a survivor. I refuse to sit around crying & feeling sorry for myself. I gave them nigga's a piece of my mind, forgave them & moved on. In this world, bad things will happen to you, but it's about picking yourself back up & living to see another day. You never become so weak & victimized that you literally slip into a coma of misery & self hatred. You allow the abuser to WIN. Rarely does one forget about sexual abuse, they just simply deny it. Due to shame & embarrassment. But, a lot of people truly do have memory lose of physical abuse. And I'm speaking from 1st had experience.