I need to release this. I have been seeing a married man at my church for a year and a half. Yes I’m a guy........ I started texting him to get to know him and his family. This dude is NO WHERE near my type. But as we started texting over time he started turning his responses to a sexual nature. Which I ignored for awhile. Finally one day I gave in to his advances. This would follow late nights of him picking me up and finding a spot to do our thing. Later moving to me coming to the house while his wife is at work. They have children and it’s bad but he made me feel special. ? anyway. I’ve lost count of how many times we have had sex. But I never got the friend I wanted. He only hit me up when he wanted sex. Well of course he use to text all the time, but he started to ignore me. Anyway, he texted and said we must stop. It’s wrong and we need to do better..... so I said well we can still be cool.... this man said idk.... so I never got my friend! I feel horrible and need to get over this ?