While Diddy’s musical offerings may have you reaching for the mute button, the Bad Boy honcho sure knows how to dish the business when it comes to interviews – well at least when it comes to his recent chat with Elle Magazine. In this revealing interview, which I spotted over at my girl Necole Bitchie, Diddy opens up about the effect his father’s murder had on him, his approach to relationships and more. An interesting, I must say:
Were you a sexually precocious kid?
SEAN COMBS: I was in pursuit of female attention from when I was probably four or five. It started with my mother’s friends putting me to sleep on their laps. But I wasn’t really asleep; I was enjoying the way it felt to lay on a pair of beautiful breasts.
And how did your first time go?
SC: Great, but I’d had a lot of practice from watching this show on cable called Midnight Blue, where they had actual scenes from pornos. Me and Midnight Blue had a Thursday night at one o’clock date—I’d make sure my mother was asleep, take a shower, lock the door, put on cologne.
Wasn’t there an awful lot of talking from Midnight Blue host Al Goldstein?
SC: Yeah, he definitely talked a lot. And he interrupted. But it taught me mind control.
Your dad was shot to death when you were only three. Who taught you how to behave with women?
SC: A couple years ago, my psychologist came to the conclusion that this is one of the big problems I have as far as maturing in a relationship. After my father got killed, my mother said, “I’m never getting married again. I don’t want men around my children.” So I’ve never actually been able to witness a husband and wife’s love. Sometimes when I see it with my friends, I just find myself staring like a child, because I’ve never actually seen it before. It’s one of the sad parts of my life.
So what kind of behavior does this bring out in relationships?
SC: When a relationship gets to a certain point, I probably get scared and become a little self-destructive.
By self-destructive, do you mean going out with other women?
If you get caught cheating red-handed, what’s the best response?
SC: Cry. It might not work, but it at least shows that you care. Goddamn, this is a deep interview. You didn’t ask Will Smith none of this shit!
But we’re making such valuable progress! Just tell me: Are the tears real?
SC: Yeah, it hurts me. One of my weaknesses is that I actually have a conscience.
Wow. This is the first I’ve heard about his father’s passing. Quite unfortunate.
In any case, reading this sure as hell drives home why Cassie and Kim Porter are in the positions they are (see: Monica’s ‘Makings of Me’ LP, track #3). I just marvel at how, knowing this, these chicks still throw themselves at him. Confused.com…