As revealed here, Mariah Carey may have been secretly battling bipolar disorder for nearly two decades, but her recent announcement about the condition has seen her more open than ever.
Beyond the initial revelation, Carey took to U.K.’s ‘Lorraine’ earlier this week to share her ‘optimism’ on her daily battle for better mental health (click here to watch that). Now, taking to ‘The Guardian,’ the pop icon’s delving deeper than ever before.
Citing her troubled childhood and rocky marriage to legendary record executive Tommy Mottola as the catalysts, look inside to read Mimi’s telling tales about her bouts with bipolar disorder:
On how being biracial impacted her outlook on life:
“It was a combination of being biracial and experiencing the darker side of life,” she said. “My mom experienced a lot of racism as an opera singer because she was married to a black man.”
“What can I do? I can’t go in the sun,” she added. “I had to go through so much in my childhood just to feel accepted and feel worthy of existing on Earth because I felt so different from everybody else growing up, because I was biracial, because I was so ambiguous-looking and because we didn’t have the money to escape whatever the everyday realities of life were.”
On her marriage to Mottola:
“It also wounded me,” she said. “When you have to control your own emotions constantly and be aware of every move you make and pretty much ask permission to exist, it affects your life.”
On her older sister’s run-ins with the law for prostitution:
“[Alison’s troubles] turned me into a very guarded person, and a very prudish person on a lot of levels,” she said. “I don’t think it’s for me to feel guilty about decisions that other people made with their lives. I do as much, privately, as anybody would do for people who have not been very considerate of me, to put it mildly.”